This was one of the first videos I ever recorded back in 2020, when I was still following all the mainstream advice about addiction: “Don’t enable.” “Cut them off.” “They have to hit bottom.”

In this video, I talk about how I canceled my daughter’s phone, kicked her out, and refused to help because I thought that was the only way to save her. My tone is blunt. Almost cold. I believed what I was doing was right. That it was loving. That it was necessary.

And in some ways, parts of that message still hold truth: people will find a way to use if they’re not ready to stop. But this video also reflects something deeper…my own fear. My own desperation. My own unhealed understanding of addiction.

I’m not proud of this moment. But I’m not hiding it either.

Because this is where my journey began. And to understand how far I’ve come you have to see where I started.